Monday, February 11, 2013

The Hazards of Time Travel

I was re reading my last post and I realized that I didn't do a very good job explaining who my friend is. I think I came across a bit harsh and judgmental about her take on her son and his future. In fact, my words sounded quite blaming....and that was not my intention. My friend is a wonderful person and a dedicated and involved parent who wants the best for her son. I have always enjoyed my interaction with her and although we do not see each other often, when we do come together, I find her to be a fun and enlightening person. In some ways, I guess this is my point. This conversation is not about good or bad...or right or wrong.....it is not about judging parents or accusing them of being over involved ( Don't get me started on the whole "helicopter parent" theme.....can we be anymore judgmental toward parents?). My point is that in our society there exists certain themes and messages that we accept as gospel. These narratives become so ingrained in our consciousness that we do not ever stop and ask if there is any evidence that they are true. If we were to thoroughly explore the content of these societal stories, we might find that they are not only not based in fact, but they serve to create a level of worry and anxiety that is not needed, and yet, can feel overwhelming. 


Have you ever stopped to think about the temporal aspect of our thinking and feeling? Where does your mind dwell? If you have a tendency to dwell in the past, there is a good chance that you experience your fair share of sadness, regret and depression. If your mind spends most of its time thinking about the future, you probably experience worry and anxiety. I can't tell you how often my thoughts take me to both my past and my future. Now some of you might be thinking that there is a benefit to exploring both "time zones." This is true to a point. We can learn much about moving forward by assessing our past and the best goal setting requires attention to how I would like my future to look. At the end of the day, this really becomes about two issues.  First, how much time do I spend dwelling in the past or the future? Second, does this endeavor prove to be a productive use of my time and energy?

The "I worry about my child's future" theme is an excellent example from which you can self assess. How much time do you spend ruminating over this thought? What is the emotional cost? What is the level of worry and anxiety that you experience? Is this a productive use of your time? The question of "productive use of time" is the fascinating question for me......probably because I am so often guilty of this. A colleague of mine refers to worry as "time well wasted." If you think about this statement, you will see the truth in it. I don't know about you, but very rarely does my worry result in a "change in reality" as the things I worry about, especially when it comes to my children, are out of my control. I can not make things happen in my children's lives, only they can! They are in total control of their choices, behaviors and lives. It is just a fantasy that us parents like to participate in that we can "control" our children. It's almost like belief in this magical power substantiates my worry. If I believe that my worry, no matter how much time and energy I invest in it, will not result in changes in my child's life, changes only they can make, then, at the end of the day, what is the productivity of my worry? I can extrapolate this line of thinking to any topic that requires me to spend an inordinate amount of time dwelling in the past or the future.

Some of you are probably thinking that it is impossible to not worry about your children. I agree wholeheartedly! In fact, if any of you can figure out how not to spend a significant amount of time and energy worrying about your children, will you please write a book!!!!! I will be the first to buy it!!!!! For me, this has becomes less about beating myself up for hanging out at either end of my life calendar......I consistently find myself in both places.And if I am honest , when I am there, I am engaged in some combination of regret and worry, neither being a productive use of my time. I now simply want to commit myself to stepping out of the time tunnel for even a few minutes a day.

What I now attempt to focus on is increasing the amount of time that I spend in the here and now. I find this to be quite challenging.....to stop my emotional time traveling and just enjoy the moment. More and more is being written about the many practices that fall under the heading of mindfulness. I think in terms of patience and stillness. These concepts remind me to STOP...do not go into the past or the future....just STOP and spend a moment in the present. I do not practice this as consistently as I would like yet, but I am improving. My goal is to not let a day go by that I do not carve out at least one 10 minute span of time to just sit with my thoughts and feelings, not judge them, not judge myself, not regret, not worry, just be.

Are you worth 10 minutes a day?

Check out this video from mindfulness expert Andy Puddicombe.......



I wish you purpose, passion and peace!

Keith



Thursday, February 7, 2013

Will my kid fall behind?........an issue of mindset....and me

In our present day culture, the emphasis on education as the key to ones happiness in life is a powerful narrative. From the time our children enter kindergarten....let me take that back...from the time they enter pre school, they, and us parents, are inundated with an assortment of messages regarding the importance of education. This narrative points to education as the "key to lifelong success and happiness." Inherent in this general narrative is an equally  resiliant sub narrative that goes something like this; " If our children don't take full advantage of their educational opportunities prior to age 18, if they don't take every AP class, if they don't build an activities resume that lists every sport and club known to human kind, if they don't get into the biggest and best college, they are destined to be behind their peer for the remainder of their lives." If you think I'm too dramatic, you are either not a parent or haven't been speaking with any.  AP classes, GPA's, number of colleges applied to.....welcome to the new form of "keeping up with the Jones." And if you are thinking that this is a source of stress for our children, let me tell you about a recent conversation I had with a friend of mine.

A few weeks ago, I had the opportunity to spend some time with a woman that I know. We are friends, not close friends, but we know each other through some community connections and our children have been friends. Her son is in his junior year in high school. I know her son. He is a wonderful young man...intelligent, resourceful, strong student and athlete, excellent interpersonal skills..... a nice kid! We had not seen each other in a while so we were catching up on what our children are up to. As she was telling me about her son's latest endeavors, she made the following statement;  " I have told him that the next year of his life with be THE MOST IMPORTANT YEAR IN HIS LIFE." ( I added the caps ).  She went on to share her belief that the last 1 1/2 years of her son's high school career will completely shape his entire future....positive or negative!

I have had the opportunity to have a similar conversation with many parents. The level of anxiety and fear that is embeded in this perspective is palpable and I find myself continually curious about the factors in our culture that create this mindset. I know we all love our children and want the best for them. I get that education is important and that we all want our children to achieve to their ability. But to look at any 16 - 18 year old and tell them, and believe yourself, that their decisions and actions over the next tiny portion of their lives will set in concrete their ultimate destiney is wrong....it is just wrong! I don't mean its wrong from a moral standpoint or just because I have a different perspective. I mean this is wrong because there is no evidence in the real world to support this supposition.

How many of us have known people ( maybe even ourselves) who struggled through their teens and yet have created a very successful life? How many people were well into their 30's before they finally found their calling? How many people delay college for a variety of reasons and still are able to find a meaningful career? How many people have had to reinvent themselves numerous times through their career? How many people find passion in careers that don't require a 4 year degree? How many people do you know who have been able to benefit from the second, third, or fourth chance that life has afforded them?  How many people do you know who have rejected the traditional college/career path for something a bit more unorthodox and yet still were able to create a very meaningful life?

How can we turn to any teenager and tell them with a straight face that if they don' t get this thing we call life and career figured out by the end of June of their senior year in high school, they are destined for a life of misery??

So back to my curiousity about the origins of this line of anxiety ridden belief. I know that there is no one explanation or factor that has helped to create a generation of anxious and scared students and their parents. But I do believe that part of the answer can be found in the concept of mindset.....an individual's, and more specfically, our cultural mindset around the concept of deficit/abundance.

Is there enough??? This is the fundamental question that is at the base of a person's deficit/abundance mindset. You might be asking, "enough of what?" Well, the answer all depends on what we are talking about. In terms of the heightened parental anxiety around academic and career attainment, a deficit mindset internal conversation might sound something like this; "if my child doesn't get the best grades, he won't get into the best school, he won't have the same opportunities as those at the "better" schools, he will graduate with limited job opportunities, he will fall behind on the career ladder, etc. For the child, and their parent,  that doesn't follow the prescribed route through the educational system, namely, complete high school in four years, go right onto college and complete your Bachelors degree by 22, the volume of the deficit internal voice can be deafening. There is not enough...not enough money, not enough opportunity, not enough happiness. If my child falls "behind" even one day, if she passes on even one opportunity, one club, one sport, one community service experience, she will be playing catch up "for the rest of her life!" "If some one gets there first (who knows where where is), my kid won't."

There is evidence galore in our greater culture of this deficit mindset. The overemphasis on competition vs. cooperation, the media's obsession with what we don't have, with what is in short supply, the drive for consumption, the quick and easy access to everything from food to entertainment to technology. This entire conversation becomes even more complex with the prevailing belief that if you go to school, do well, go to college, do well, and find a job, this will allow you to live a happy and meaningful life for the rest of your life ( there is no evidence of this being true...a topic for a future blog post).  Could the frenetic rush of our lives be driven by a fundamental belief that if we don't get our stuff now, it won't be available tomorrow, and if it's not available to us tomorrow (never mind the fear that someone else got it before we did) we might never be able to attain it?

There is enough! This is the cornerstone belief behind a mindset of abundance. It is a perspective on self and the world that holds that there is more than enough of what people want.... for everyone. An abundance mindset subscribes to win-win! There are plenty of opportunities in the world, there is plenty of money, food, friends and happiness. As I pursue my personal definition of these items, I do not believe that if I achieve what I want, there will be less for you...or visa versa. There is nothing about this mindset that is magical thinking...its not some spiritual mumbo jumbo....and it does not mean a person does not have to work hard to create their happiness.It is just a life view that frees a person up to take their own path, to now follow the crowd out of fear that they will miss something. It is a philosophy that creates less anxiety and more hope, a mindset that honors that not all children will take the same path.  And I would add, that in my 53 years on this planet, it is a mindset that greatly enhances my sense of happiness, meaning, and calmness. I can also admit, that in my role as a parent, there are times that it has been incredibly challenging to not allow myself to get caught up in the prevailing deficit narrative, to not experience that wave of anxiety about whether my children are "falling behind." You know those moments.....when you are talking with friends who tell you all the wonderful stuff that is going on with their kids...and in your head....as much as you don't want to....you are comparing...."maybe my kid isn't doing enough"......."maybe they are already falling behind"........"they have to get moving now on their career"......."have I given them enough"........have I been a good enough parent?"............"what does it say about me that my kid isn't following the preferred path?" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! In a blink of the eye, I go from feeling in control and completely adequate as a parent to inferior, inadequate, and questioning every parenting decision I have made! Oh my God!!!! this started out as me just wanting my child to find success and now, when it comes right down to it, this is totally about me!

What do I need to do to practice an abundance mindset?

What practices can I build into my daily life to actively pursue gratitude (a close cousin of abundance)?

How do I allow my child to truly find their path (not the path I wish for them)?

To be continued.........

I wish you all a life of purpose, passion and peace

Keith







Monday, January 28, 2013

Don't Let your Role, Replace your Soul

The Start of my Blog


This past Friday I had the opportunity to participate in a 2 hour Wellness Workshop at my school. Friday was one of our twice per year Superintendent Workshop Days. On these days, our students get the day off while faculty and staff participate in some type of training and/or professional development. I have been in public education for 25 years and I still don't quite understand how these two days have come to be met with such a sense of dread and hostility. One would think that we would all be extremely excited about a day to develop ourselves or focus on a project. It just doesn’t seem to work that way.

In preparation for Friday, we asked our supervisor if we could use part of the day to focus on wellness. Thus, for the last two hours of the day a therapist from our community, her name is Jodi, came in to facilitate a conversation about self care for us mental health folk. Jodi took us through a simple meditation exercise and then led a discussion on some of the challenges to self care that are inherent in what we do. We ended the day with a wonderfully silly game called "laughing yoga."

Did I learn anything new? No, I can't say that I did. I mean I have been working in the mental health field for 30 years. I know alot of stuff and I have always focused on the issue of self care. In fact, a number of years ago I created a workshop that I named "Don't let your Role, Replace your Soul." In this workshop I brought together concepts from life coaching, positive psychology and personal awareness. I have had the opportunity to facilitate this workshop with hundreds of mental health practitioners and educators. I am proud to say that it has been well received. I know self care....I mean...damn....I teach the concept to others!!!!!

So why then did I walk away from this two hour wellness conversation with Jodi feeling like I had been hit by a Mack truck??? Why was I on the verge of tears through the entire presentation???

Because ladies and gentlemen, I have been guilty over the past few months of allowing my role to replace my soul. A process that can be so subtle, so complex, so gradual, that it does not register in your consciousness until that moment when it hits you like a ton of bricks. For me, that moment was Jodi's presentation. I had allowed the stresses of work, family, health....of being a vulnerable human being.... leak into the fiber of my being.

Damn!!!!!!! How the hell did I let that happen????? I know this stuff, right? I'm the guy who does that workshop on wellness!!!!! It’s the crazy system I work in anyway...right? It's not me!!!!!!

It's pretty cool how the universe delivers what we need if we are courageous enough to open the door when the universe knocks. And maybe at the end of the day this is the real issue. It's not about having failed because I allowed myself to get out of balance...welcome to humanity.......it’s about being open to another human being who I had never met and I had no idea was there on Friday to personally deliver a message to me.......a message that I needed to hear.

It was time to take full responsibility for resuscitating my soul. I could no longer blame people, places and circumstances. Jodi was there to request that I rediscover the many habits and practices that bring joy, satisfaction and meaning into my life. She didn't know that was what she was there for.......but it was.

Today, I sent a thank you email to Jodi. I didn't go into great detail, just thanked her for highlighting a topic that we can't talk too much about. My email signature includes my website address, which Jodi checked out. When she responded to my email, she commented on the name of the workshop I have done, "Don't let your Role, Replace your Soul." She thought it would be a great title for a blog.

Who the hell is this woman???? Another comment, this time about a possible blog, that socked me in the gut. I have been thinking about doing a blog for years. I stared at her email most of the day. Maybe all of this...getting out of balance...feeling overwhelmed....not practicing what I have preached to others......is another sign that it is time to challenge myself to move forward. Maybe I have become too complacent with being one of the "experts" about self care. In fact, there is no question about this given the incredibly crappy job I have been doing taking care of myself over the past few months.

So folks, a new blog has begun. One that will focus on how we can effectively fulfill all of the various roles we have in our busy lives, while at the same time, truly honoring our soul....our sense of self....our sense of purpose.....our sense of connection and meaning.

Should you find your way to this blog, I hope you find it helpful. I will do my best to identify resources and ideas that can help us all focus on our physical, emotional, relationship and spiritual wellness. But if I am to be completely honest, this blog is being created for selfish reasons. The last few months has demonstrated how much I am in need of new habits and practices that will, on a daily basis, remind me that I am ultimately responsible for my happiness.

Maybe, that’s not so selfish after all.

I wish you purpose, passion and peace!

Keith